The Power of the 3M’s – Mindfulness, Movement and Marijuana

**Please note, all of my words come from two places – love and faith. These words are my OPINIONs backed by experience and knowledge with a hope to empower you.


When I came back from the MAYO clinic, I was scared as hell..

I knew I wouldn’t make it in this world if I didn’t get my sh** together….

The challenge? I wasn’t prescribed more meds! I was prescribed a prescription that involved ME and my CHOICE as to what to do next….

Two things I was asked to conquer daily – mindfulness and movement.

Regardless of the pain I felt – I was asked to move every single day for 60 minutes and that movement was to be based on how I felt that day…

Regardless of the HUGE resistance to mindfulness, I was also being asked to embrace it with open arms and find time to quiet my overthinking, insanely wonderful brain of mine….

My Mom says looking back – she is amazed at what I’ve done to rewire it all and all I knew at the time, was that I no longer had a choice.

I came home with one intention – to rediscover how to take care of me.

How? By leaning into the 2M’s I was being asked to discover – MIndfulness and Movement….and start them slowly and consistently….

The first few weeks, I did both 1-2 times per week…I celebrated every time…3 mins of meditation and 60 min of HOT Yoga….

Most times, after my exercise, I had no energy to do anything else and spent the rest of the time reading, journaling or watching TV and yet, overtime, it got easier.

It wasn’t the exercise that kept me showing up at Yoga, or the gym or CrossFit, it was this powerful sense of what the world needs more of right now – community.

Whether you walk into Yoga, a gym or a CrossFit box – when you find a tribe that matches your vibe, you want more of it….and that’s what started to happen. I found that every community I met – I learned, I reflected and I grew….and it cultivated this newfound strength within that I wanted more of….

If you knew the power of CrossFit, you’d find a tribe right now too. The world needs more movement and CrossFit gives you an approach beyond anything I’ve ever seen. 

If you’ve ever met a CrossFitter, they are often quite passionate about CrossFit and don’t know how to stop talking about it. If I could, I’d wear a shirt everyday and talk about it non-stop, not because I love the tribe, but because of what’s it done for my body.

A few things you must know about the power behind this incredible workout…

  • CrossFit keeps you moving better daily. It’s all about Functional movements and these are the things we do often – like sitting, standing, lifting, etc. 
  • CrossFits workouts are made for EVERYONE. They are scalable and if you find the right gym, doing CrossFit properly, it will change your life. It’s all about showing up 3-4 times/week to really get the best of what the workout has to offer. 
  • In life, we want to do everything all at once, however CrossFit teaches you about the importance of showing up daily to continuously build strength – little by little, overtime (this concept is called progressive overload).. Building strength overtime with CrossFit has shown to take HUMANS from a place of lack to a place of empowerment with their health. 
  • EGO – you cannot walk into a CrossFit gym with your title in the business world and rock CrossFit. You cannot walk into CrossFit and bring your EGO, or else it will take you out. CrossFit guides you to see your internal power within and let everything else go. I’ve worked out with some powerful HUMANS in the work world and yet, it didn’t stop me from kicking their ass or cheering them on..

WE want to be better than yesterday. 

We want to be stronger than yesterday. 

We want to be healthier than yesterday….

We want to consistently show up for ourselves and watch ourselves get stronger overtime. 

If there is one aspect of the 3M’s I’m asking you to embrace right now – movement with/without CrossFit would be it. Even if you are just starting out, I still suggest CrossFit….If you live in Halifax, CrossFit Basinview has done all these aspects very well. It’s where I go and their way of doing things + their incredible COMMUNITY continues to empower me from the inside out and make me stronger in ways I never imagined I could be….

Ok, enough about my Love….on to the 3rd and most powerful M of all….the one that gets judged the most and the one that I would yell from the rooftops if more people would tune in and listen….

As I started working out and leaning into the power of mindfulness, my Physician at the time opened me up to this powerful opportunity to use medicine as tools.

His words…accept the pills you are being asked to take…you are at a place that you need them however as you do, learn tools to replace them and overtime, work your way off them…

I had to accept that I needed antidepressant to thrive again. And yet, I knew I couldn’t stay on them forever… as I leaned into new tools, I also chose to explore opportunities outside the realm of pharmaceuticals….

This is where I discovered the powerful medicine that is my 3rd M – marijuana.

If the world knew the science on marijuana, the world would not be drinking every day at 4pm. The world would be taking a puff of this powerful healer and using it as their new tool of choice.

Did you know that REM sleep increases with marijuana?

Did you know our bodies are actually made to receive marijuana – there are actually receptors in our bodies that naturally bind to it…..

Did you know that marijuana actually brings your body back to a state of equilibrium – one that very few of us live in right now???

Did you know that marijuana makes meditation even more mindful?

Did you know that marijuana makes you become a better parent because you laugh and feel a little more like yourself again???

Did you know that there is such a thing as not getting so high you can’t function, but microdosing?? And this powerful opportunity can guide your body to do magical things.

Microdosing – a few puffs at a time, starting with just ONE before bed sleep better, to feel better….

My pain held me back for a very long time. I could not be a good mom, a good wife or a good human… 

Marijuana allowed me to start seeing that this was possible again and as I embraced it, I was able to let the pills go. All the pills go…and now, I am not addicted to marijuana, it’s a tool in my toolbox I call on when I need a little help to get through the day…

My 3’M I choose to do daily and wouldn’t have it any other way….

Maybe it’s time you embrace some aspect of them too and watched magic happen….within you….

I am seven years out from the start of my journey with my 3M’s and here is where I’m at:



I am on only one pill a day for my Thyroid condition 

I’ve weaned myself off 100mg of antidepressants

I journal daily with gratitude as my main focus

I am a 3M believer… 

I am a marijuana smoker

I am a FU** IT believer (read my last blog)…

I am a mediator DAILY with MINDFULNESS as my ultimate superpower…

The ultimate power in it all??

I found myself again through the power of the 3M’s….

Maybe today, you will too..

Remember – you are so fu**ing worth it and “there truly is no you, without YOU”.

Wake up call..I hope you’re listening…Bye for now.


The FOUR letter word with BIG MEANING.

**This post isn’t meant to come from any other place, but from a place of love and opportunity. My intention is to make you laugh and to move forward, knowing that small powerful concepts can truly shift it all. Enjoy

The word F**K…

This word is my ultimate superpower.

When added to any word, it can shift an entire moment.

Out of chaos and into courage.

Out of anger and into laughter…..

It can take a new found friendship from uncomfortable to “I fu**ing love you” within minutes, if said with a smile.

It can take a word and make it magical….Absofu**inglotely is my fav.

It can take a moment of “I can’t” to “F**k it, lets do it anyway

For me, it’s become my courage word

When I’m getting ready to do something big….I often call on its power to ignite, in my body, what it needs to show up….

How? By standing tall and saying it out loud….

Let’s do this….Remember who you are…


From there, I can do FU**ING ANYTHING…..

To me, it’s not just a word.

It has become a powerful concept that I’ve learned to use to guide my soul forward in all aspects of my life. After coming back from the MAYO clinic and being sh** Scared of the diagnosis I’d been given, I knew I had no choice but to move forward and find a way to “be afraid and do it anyway”….

I knew I had to call on the warrior within and yet, I couldn’t feel her anymore.I had lost myself so much in all the wrong things that I was about to give up on it all. The challenge was – I couldn’t and you can’t either….

Regardless of how much guilt we carry – how messed up we feel or how “off kilter” our lives are – we must show up for our kids. There were SO many days, I could barely stand tall this year – let alone these last five years and yet, they are the reason I stand taller, stronger and more at peace than ever….you have this same opportunity.

I am a grower. I am a human with a belief that everyday we must show up better than yesterday and this is NOT for ourselves anymore, but for our children. My kids and I are at the stage (both 10 and 12) where they call me out. I’ve spent years guiding them to show up as their authentic selves with kindness and truth – so I give them permission to call me out when they feel I am not aligned with the same.

I often tell my kids that just because adults wear adult suits, doesn’t always mean we do it well. We too aren’t perfect and we too make mistakes. Those mistakes, when we are adults, are meant to guide us to grow, to guide us to take responsibility for our own actions and more importantly, to learn from them so that we do it differently next time. Unfortunately, right now – this is NOT our #1 approach, and it’s why I’m speaking out loud….

We cannot tell our kids to do things that we, as adults, don’t do ourselves. We are their teachers, their guides, their mirrors and if we are off kilter, or unkind to others or judgmental of our own selves (or others) –  then it’s pretty likely that they are going to do the same….

In this past year, my daughter has come to me with a few call outs that, in the past, would have taken me out. Now, after years of practice, these moments make me realize how lucky we are as parents to have this powerful mirror that is at play.

 I now laugh at the fact that at ten, she is capable of this and I use it as MY reset to ensure I’m aligned with my truths…

Two times that her call outs “dug deep”….

  1. “Mommy, you tell us to look you in the eyes when speaking and you’ve stopped. You are so distracted by your phone and not present with us, it doesn’t feel very nice”….UGH…..
  2. The ultimate gut wrenching moment that really aligned me with the mirror was the day she got in the car after two days of anger and frustration towards each other. When I attempted to cut her off with my words, she paused and said the following “you often say you mirror me MOM, however, I’ve been at school feeling all your anger and sadness today (the connection amongst kids and parents is huge) and I’m calling you out because its not me you are mirroring, it’s yourself”…

Wholly FU**KKKKKKKKK…This power of energy that flows between our kids and ourselves is magical. Kids are super power feelers and this knowing isn’t to make you feel more guilty, but to empower you with the knowledge that it may be time to do something different….

So back to my favourite word. 

I love Fu** so much that I’ve built a concept around it and this concept has gotten me through the times when I can barely carry myself.

When I am not mirroring my best self to the world, I no longer look outward for guidance. I go within and use this powerful concept of “FU** IT” to find a way to do it differently.

So here it is….

If you don’t like swearing, FACK it works too!!


F – yell F**KKKKKKKKKK really loud or internally (if you can’t yell)….PAUSE, take a breathe, giggle within…..and FORGIVE yourself (you are only HUMAN)

UUNDERSTAND and ACCEPT (if you don’t like to swear)  that you are HUMAN and that it’s not what you do in the moment that matters, it’s what you do AFTER that matters most….so find a way forward differently and DO IT RIGHT NOW. If you need a friend to talk it out with, do it. Perspective is key here.

C– learn to have COMPASSION and CARE for yourself in the moment. If you are not speaking to yourself the way you do for others when they are struggling, now is the time to start….what would you say to a friend in this moment, are you doing the same of yourself???

KKARMA – We cannot “fake out” KARMA. We get what we give as HUMANS. If you are not showing up as your best self and not doing things wholeheartedly from a place of love and authenticity, the karma you get sucks until you CHOOSE to do it differently. Accept your KARMA and try again. Learn from your KARMA, that’s why it’s here. 

I IT take choice in the NOW – the present MOMENT


This concept, this approach to life, has allowed me so many moments of courage to do it differently and as a result, it’s completely shifted my KARMA and my life.

I offer you this same opportunity. The reality is, we are all feeling “off” right now,  so the only way forward isn’t to keep dwelling on what we aren’t doing, but to find small ways to do it differently.

What if, F**K IT is your way forward…the time is now to try it out…

If all else fails and you get nothing out of this blog post, know that inserting “FU**” between your first and last name can give you such an empowering feeling that it may be all you need to move forward.

We are all HUMAN….we all have such choice in this world and all I know is that I want my kids to do it differently than I did….which means I must reflect the ultimate in truth, acceptance, and forgiveness in my mirror…maybe it’s time you did too….

FU** It……you are so fucking worthly of trying it out….your time is NOW

I have a concept for kids too…it’s called CHUCK IT…i’ll write about it next time…

Bye for now my friends. Thank you for listening to my call out 🙂

Are you in pain? Read this..

Please note: I am no scientist and the knowledge I’ve acquired is self taught by Certifications and my own experience. I am sharing to empower you to believe and trust you are way more powerful than the world has made you to believe. My information is backed by Science and knowledge that has been around for years and now, more than ever, we are being asked to tune in and open our minds to our most powerful opportunity to move forward.

So here I go….

What if you knew that pain wasn’t just your body’s way of yelling, but a huge opportunity to unravel what you are attempting to numb?

What if you knew that pain was there to guide you – back within – to what your body is trying to tell you to “feel” again and by ignoring it, it will only get louder? 

What is incredible to me is that “feelings “aren’t really being felt right now and it’s why I know pain and chronic illness are on the rise, now more than ever. We are so NUMB to all that has happened, that we’ve chosen to ignore the more important aspect of being HUMAN – emotions and therefore in the next few years, I predict a huge amount of illness related to pain. 

I know how pain feels. I am blessed to wake up daily not knowing the pain I will feel. Some Days my entire right side does not function properly. Some Days I can complete a CrossFit workout almost Rx (at the athlete level) and some days – like now, I can only do body weight. As a result of ignoring my pain for so long, I am now blessed to have messages of pain daily to remind me that I still have work to do. The pain used to control me, it used to keep me hidden from the world and scared of everything. If you knew me ten years ago, you’d know me as the extrovert who thrived on having humans around to function (my numbing technique) and yet, now, I am more of a hermit because I choose to take the time I need to listen to what my beautiful body is trying to tell me and do it differently. 

What if pain is our way to tune in? What if pain really is an emotion we are choosing to block? What if illness is our opportunity to really pay attention to what our body has been trying to yell for so long that now it’s yelling in a way – we must tune in? What if you knew, according to science, that 98% of illnesses are energetically related? What if you knew that if you tune in to the pain you are being asked to feel, understood the emotion related to that pain – you could slowly start to unravel the pain and actually heal?

I’ve done this. Over and over and as a result, not only does the pain NOT define me anymore – there are many days I have NO pain. 

As I’ve learned to unravel the pain, I’ve studied this incredible opportunity we have as HUMANS right now. 

Lousie Hays has been my guide. She is the author of so many incredible books related to matching pain with emotions and guiding us with affirmations to unravel them.

I know this sounds crazy and yet, this tied with epigenetics (new science in the last 50 years) is proving that HUMANs are way more fucking powerful then we ever knew we were. 

Back to the 98%… is what we are learning from a scientific perspective. We used to think that the body only existed as a physical entity which meant we needed to rely on physical medicine to heal. WE get sick, we go to the doctor for medicine and it heals. It is why I was on eight pills a day – to heal. What we are seeing now – as we’ve chosen to reconnect with the energetic perspective of the body through quantum physics and now epigenetics, is that we are more energetically aligned than physically aligned which means there is HUGE potential in what we are learning around self healing.

Everything in this world is energy. Powerful swirls of mini tornados that come together and form physical spaces – bodies, things, etc. In our incredible bodies – energy is controlled by our hearts and our hearts read energy by way of emotions. Our hearts start beating long before anything else in our vessel and as we are now learning, they really are the key to unlocking it all. Our hearts are guided by emotions and the emotions we feel control the environments of our bodies. Every emotion creates hormones that flow through our body and what is released based on the emotion we feel is how our bodies choose to react. If you are in a constant overthinking, victim mentality – you are constantly creating an environment that is full of the same and the hormones that get released are a result of the emotions you feel – stress hormones,etc. If you are in a place of love, feeling joy and positivity and cultivating it daily – the environment that flows through your body matches your vibes and optimal health usually flows with it. Here is the caveat – you cannot fake your body. The body knows when the words and energy are misaligned and it will keep yelling until you choose to align them. It’s why words and thoughts are way more powerful than HUMAN choose to believe and it’s why I now yell Self love daily.

For a long time – i used positivity on the outside and felt negative thoughts within. This is why I ended up with Fibro. According to Louse Hays – Fibro is a dissonance of your soul – a disconnect from your inner and outer thoughts. The flow and the hormones in my body matched the words and feelings I felt underneath the fake and therefore – overtime, the pain built up and led to it. Now, as I’ve really understood and implemented the incredible wisdoms of Louise Hay’s (and science) as my guide – I’ve unravelled the pain, shifted my inner thoughts, rewired my brain through mindfulness and connected back to the positive force that I am – INSIDE and OUT. Overtime, this shift has  also shifted my body – out of survival and into something I never imagined possible again- thriving.

This hasn’t been easy and oftentimes it’s a moment my moment assessment of keeping myself aligned and yet, what’s is done is magical. It’s why I yell Self LOVE SO freaking loud.The more I’ve learned to truly and authentically love myself – through words, affirmations and trust –  the more I’ve healed within. The way I’ve done all my healing is not through doctors and medicine but through unravelling all the things I chose to ignore and not love about myself and fall in love all over again. I am no longer on eight pills a day….

I am now on one pill a day and that pill is for my thyroid. Some people call me superhuman as I’ve even cut my dose of thyroid in half this past year because of the healing work I’ve done energetically. I have no crutches (I used to need cannabis to thrive) and now – when I am blessed with a FIBRO flare up – I use it as an opportunity to tune in to what my body is trying to tell me and give it the time it needs and the rest and heal. These are the times I now go inward – hermit and use my love as my superpower to heal. You have this same POWER.

I know this sounds crazy and yet, if you met me now, you’d see the amazing work I’ve done and know that there is a lot of truth to the things I am saying. 

So here is my ask…..tune in….

Empower yourself…stop believing everything you’ve be told and open your mind….

  1. Go to the doctor and understand what the pain is trying to tell you through bloodwork, etc. You must know what you are facing to empower and heal.
  2. Get the diagnosis, take the pills...hear what they are saying however DO NOT take this as the only way forward.
  3. Find an energetic healer and open your mind to the awareness of what is possible beyond what you’ve been taught to think…
  4. Look up LOUISE HAY’s and her wisdoms-
  5. Look up EPIGENETIC‘S –

And more importantly than ever, believe that you are more fucking powerful than we’ve ever been taught to believe.

What’s crazy to me is that those of us who know all the work I am preaching are the ones who have had to experience a powerful wake up call to the fact that we aren’t invincible and yet, now I’m begging all of you to pause and tune into the powerful force that we are – HUMAN and ENERGY…..

We are all superhuman. We are all capable of so much more than you ever imagined…..all you gotta do is choose to do it differently and start right now…

Open your mind…

The time is now my friend….what are you waiting for???