This year has taught me more about life than I ever imagined. Life is so precious. WE forget how precious it truly is and start to take it for granted without even knowing. WE believe we are invincible and can “push through anything” but our belief in this mentality can quickly change us into people we’d never imagined we’d be.
I have an amazing friend! She is also a Reiki healer and Holistic nutritionist. She too, has been on a journey of a lifetime and has come out on the other side happier and healthier than ever. Now, she shares her story and uses her “powers” to help other heal as well. Like me, her journey is similar, we took ourselves to the limit of what our bodies could take, and instead of catching ourselves before we fell, our bodies just gave up. Why is it that we wait too long to take charge of our own self? Are we missing things or are we just plain old “pushing through”? And if so, if this was our child or best friend, would we sit back at watch??? I BET NOT.
Well, I’m on a journey to find why our generation, more than even, ends up this way. And my gift to you…is that If I can find the perfect balance between self care and life, I will spend the rest of my life sharing the “how”. I see so many people following in the same path that I did and all I want to do is reach out and catch them before it’s too late.
I wanted to share a HUGE breakthrough that I had in the last 6 or so months. My friend Michelle, who is my reiki goddess (mentioned above), used her amazing healing powers on me one day and the message I received was powerful. She told me, that while doing my treatment; I look directly at her and yell with anger. She said I looked similar to a monster. Now, if you don’t know reiki, I was resting on a message table pretty much in a meditative state the entire time so this monster was truly living inside me. I remember thinking “wow”…I am so curious about what this means? I’m not shocked about what she said that day, as I’ve always known that I lived with some kind of hatred or anger in my body (because of my constant negative internal thoughts), but I had no idea it was that powerful.
I walked away that day, in “ah”. For the first time ever, I let my journey take over and knew that someday, it would all mean much more. It was about 3-4 months later, when this same amazing women also posted about a 21 day detox. I’d always been curious about one of these, but was scared as hell to do it. My reasons were very different from others as to my “why” for wanting to jump on board (more spiritual than ever), however my resistance was super high. I believed there was a true reason I hated losing control and I was on a mission to find out why. I loved control of every situation and now something is going to take that away from me? How would I feel? I will never make it! I won’t be able to do it, why am I even starting this???
But, because I’m open to new things, I took it by the reigns and joined the group. I was ANGRY from the start. My negativity within took over my entire body and everything about life slowly went dark. I hated it, I hated the feelings, I hated the lack of control and I hated what I was doing……But I knew It would be the moment when I’d also see why I “Hated” it so much.
And there is was,….DAY 3. I was so angry and about to quit so I reached out to Michelle to give up. Her 1st suggestion? Go meditate. And she was very specific – do an anger meditation….so I listened and went in my quiet room to have quiet time. And within minutes, it came out….my anger…front and centre and as clear as DAY. I stopped almost immediately and starting writing…7 pages later I walked out of that room and cried like a baby to my husband. I sobbed, almost as if I was that girl all over again. And in that moment, I felt a weight disappear from my body. For the first time in my life, I was clear.
The next day was a whole new day. I woke up feeling bright, feeling calm and most importantly, feeling the way I’ve always felt on the outside – PINK. Everything looked different, everything felt different and finally, for the first time in my life, I felt like I was always supposed to be – ME.
And now, here I am. Smiling on the inside and the outside. Feeling the most joy and happiness I’ve ever felt in my life.
A special Thank you to my friend Michelle, for making me brave enough to do something completely out of my comfort zone and for helping me explore my journey.
SO why am I sharing this powerful awakening with you? Because we are all fearful in some way of what’s inside of us. And wow, that stuff that hides inside us can really fester in different ways. So…today I want you to think about this….
How are you feeling on the inside? Does is align with who you want to be? Do you even know what that means?
If you don’t, and you want to learn more, please reach out to me. I am almost finished my life coaching certification and would be more than willing to help you shed some light or direct you in a way that can help you explore where your journey might take you next….and right now, I am free…so you’ve got nothing to lose.
See you next time.